Hey everyone! I am new comer. In the past year i visited this site but never registered on it, who knows why.
I was born in 1994 under the sign of Aquarius. Since i was a child i have some sort of ability. Could not determine that, but i feel things, dream things that come true, may it be bad or good. Over the years i just tried to blink and go foward, not think about these. I know, this is a gift, but in the same time it's a curse too, because i couldn't controll it. I met a person who told me that i have to find my " master ". Well. I didn't find it.
I must say, i came here to seek help - because no doctor, medicine or meditation could solve my problem (and it's in there present for over 12 years). And sadly, i couldn't too. May i ask, where can i find someone who is/are willing to talk with me? It's very urgent.
Welcome to SoM.. You are right in that your ability like others is a double edged sword but look at yoursenseof feelings and the dreams, try to understand them and find out what they mean.. Also balance yourself in body and soul, and maybe things will come clearly to you.. My fiance has those abilities but they are closley to on when a family or close friend will die.
Yes. i understand. But i feel there is a wall ahead of me. When i was 12 i was diagnosed with Depression, Mania, Anixeity and a lot of mental illnes, physical illnes...etc They prescribed me drugs. After 2 month i refused to take them, because it changed me a very bad way. I always sought to find peace and answers in the spiritual world. But i did not find nothing, only darkness, fear, and something else that i cannot describe.
Few month ago i woke up somehow mentally. I have no idea what happened. I went too deep into my toughts. I forgot about real life. I am nearly kicked out of University, lost my job, and my Girlfriend traveled to China (for study). She break up with me. But even this cannot fully motivate me, feels something holds me back.
I know that no one can solve my problems, only me. But it feels like i just can't stand up. I am trying to seek knowledge here. In the past 3 month i tried to save my Realationship, Life, Family, my Studies. Started to work out daily, meditate every day 30-60 min. But i could not find any type of solution... and i am starting to lose hope, again. It's very breif but really came here to seek help.
There are many ways you can take things off your mind. Take up Herblism or something that can drive you to learn and clear the chaos in your mind.. Find a hobby that can calm you.. For me its playing the xbox 360 and modding games, also playing the Xbox One.. I dont know what you been through but ive been close to loosing it all cause of being a military Vet, But it got better.. there is always an up for everything and sometimes it takes a long while. Dont give up.. The one thing is here like the 360 you can have a sort of family that can listen to you and help you through your tough times.