on Nov 21, 2013
Where do I begin?
For the past, almost 5 months, I have been living in emotional turmoil over my ex. I want him more than anything. I miss him so much the pain is unbearable. I kept telling myself to let time pass, that everything will be okay, and that I will eventually heal.. But each day I just keep feeling even worse. I don't understand it. I have been focusing on myself, trying to hard to join new clubs, make new friends, starting new activities to keep myself busy, etc. But nothing seems to work. I'm so tired of this feeling, I don't want to live like this anymore. I can't remember how long it's been since I've actually felt happy. We broke up back in April, and everyday I just keep feeling worse. It's seriously eating me away slowly, and I feel like I'm falling into depression. It's getting to a point where I start crying randomly and feel these really bad pains in my stomach, I just don't know what's going on...But I know for sure I really don't want to live like this anymore.
I need a reading on whether I should cut the soul-mate cord. I need to get over him, I need to heal, I can't be with him right now this particular point in life, and I understand that. But at the same time I don't want to cut the cord because I'm scared it'll harm the chances of us never getting back together in the future even if we are finally ready to? I'm so confused.. I just need a reading to give me a final push and help me make a final decision. Please help me guys.. thanks in advance.