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I am new and have always been interested in magic and have always tried spells. I have always loved animals and wolves. I can't really use candles and crazy stuff, because my parents don't let me. I am not sure how to shape shift. I don't want to transform outside. I want to be on my bed, in my room. I want to be a big black wolf with gold eyes and shining white-crystal sharp teeth. And also if anyone has a working werewolf spell perfect for me that don't have to be on full moon. I also need help on summoning a familiar. Plz help me. I've wanted this my whole life! Please help me.