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Hello everyone, I'm not exactly sure how to begin this so I'll just throw it all out there and see if it connects with anyone.

I've been in a battle with myself, dark self I suppose I would call it, for a very long time. Currently my energy levels have hit rock bottom. I've sort of turned into a neutral non-emotional person, where I feel I'm so spiritually drained I can't even attempt things I use to find fun anymore, such as trying to AP.

I was wondering if there was a way to boost my energy levels, and sort of get a level head in order to try and push past this barrier. I'm not exactly sure if it's the other side of me making it so hard, or if there is more at play. I've tried banishing, asking gods for help.. I'm just not sure where to go from here.

It's almost like metaphorically speaking I've sat down and fallen asleep, and I can't seem to wake up.. I still have control, but no urges, no impulse.. I feel a bit dead inside. My emotions as I've said remain in sort of a neutral state, but when provoked they come out as extreme, then quickly fade back to neutral. I'm a bit confused, as I feel as though I just don't care any more. Though I know that to not be true as I feel I have to keep trying, I just feel like I'm trying to push a wall over at the moment.

Would anyone have any advice, or a way to re-energize myself? I'm sick of this dormant feeling.