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Hello everyone I've been a long time observe of the site and decide to make an account to ask a question that's been bothering me for a while.
Because of personal life experiences, I'm a pretty negative person, and i have a lot of anger inside of me. Ive been trying to astral project for about 4 months and have had zero results. Upon reading the astral projection forums, I've read that one has to be grounded and has to be filled with positive thoughts but I'm confused. I want to use astral projection as a way to escape my anger and the overall life so i can be filled with positive thoughts and become grounded, but it seems i have to escape my anger, overall life, become grounded and be positive first to astral projection and i just don't know if i can do it. Has anyone had a similar experience and if so, how did you break free of your anger and negative thoughts.

Or instead of escaping anger is there a way for me to use it to astral project if so let me know
Thanks in advance.