i have the feeling that i have been cursed and i have been this way for about 2 to 3 yrs and until recently I've been able to identify that i have been cursed in my opinion. i see shadows constantly hear knocking at night, i hear voices as if speaking in the distant. i have major mood swings, i rarely sleep,i starting to feel overwhelmed, i'm fatigued, i don't want to leave my house, im losing interest in everything i've lost my girlfriend i've lost my source of income and now im losing myself. i've fallen into a state of deep depression to where now im having suicidal thoughts. so is this a curse or has life really gotten this bad for me. Will someone please help me and tell me if this is a curse and where it came from.
If this is not a curse, it is probably a condition. I suggest first before anything else, to get the correct professional help. They can provide with medicines and help you find ways to turn your life around. Can you ask yourself if anything positive has happened even slightly in those years? It's all about perspective most times.
If it is indeed a curse, as if someone maybe placed it upon you; or you withhold something cursed - the best way to break it is to simply believe it is broken. It's actually that simple. Then you can cleanse yourself, you can bathe or shower with salt or other cleansing materials, and then enter a meditative state and while doing so, imagine a yellow shower of energy flowing down you from head to toe while any negativity and curses strip away, and leave you. Once you're refreshed and cleansed, take a moment to realize your curse is gone, and that from here on out your life will be a bit more positive. You should then ward yourself to protect from further attacks should there be any. You might want to consider if any odd or old object entered your life since you started feeling cursed and cleanse it too, or just get rid of it.
If you really are seeing shadows, hearing voices and knocking; then you might have attracted somehow either a parastitical entity or thoughtform (and a negative perception can become its own thoughtform too). Cleansing as the above mentions and warding yourself should do the trick to remove the entity. However I would further suggest you cleanse your housing and protect it too.
I hope I help, I wish you the best of luck, and I really do hope your life gets turned around into a greater direction. I have bipolar as well, and often life feels like it's just out to get you. But bare with me as tough as it is the best thing to do when you have nothing to live for, is to realize that you have everything to gain and no reason not to fight life back, and give it all you got.
im fine its not a condition because i havent always been this way. i couldnt catch it before because they used my ex as a distraction. how about using a reverse candle i have a brand new one can that work. and a few good friends put barriers and protective spells on the house so its not an entity. i cant find any professional help in my city. And i dont know how to find one. the search continues