Okay so a bit of what Im dealing with.
I was homeless for a VERY LONNNG TIME (the past 6-7yrs) So Im wonder if thats where the restlessness comes from. But I recently moved in with my boyfriend whom Ive been dating for a little over a year. So for the first time I dont have to panic or worry about where Ill be sleeping at night. Where I have to hide the car for the night. You get it.
Well in the last few weeks Ive been dealing with this angst inside. I know its a hell of an adjustment go from living completely alone all these years to living with someone as well. But I get hit with waves of get in the car a go go go! Go now! And I mean Im happy truly for the first time in the gods know how long. So the run run for it feeling really has me puzzled. It makes me feel kinda raw. Animalistic. If that makes any sense.
Anybody have any suggestions on how to at least calm this feeling down.
Boyfriend has kids so even though we were together last year he did his thing I did mine. I did a lot of traveling last year spur of the moment adventures. But Ive never sat static for very long anyway. not normally by choice most often.
But me and the boyfriend decided I would move in a few months ago. And yeah its very hard to explain because Im happy but theres this creeping restlessness that bubbles up like, I need to be doing something. I need to go. Dont sit still. About the easiest way I can try to explain it. It a very unsettled feeling.
Boyfriend laughed at me for a moment when I just jumped off the couch went out the door until he realized I had gone and just started lapping the house for almost an hour. He asked if I was okay later I told him I just needed to move. Thats about the only thing that seems to settle the feeling down a bit. But it creeps back up by the next day.