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I made one of the biggest mistakes I have made in a really long time... Today, when I was at my meeting, my teacher asked me about my background, I sort of lied... I told them one of my friends was a Satanist, and he told me about positive things about it. Although I never converted to it. And I said I was never a Satanist. I basicly was shaking when I said that, becaus some sort of explosion happened in my head... And then my face felt like it was literally burning... I felt so guilty for saying that... But I didn't want to tell them I was a Satanist, because I knew they would talk about me behind my back. And I was one of those really quiet people, because I didn't like exposing myself...

And on this very night when I was walking back home, I felt alone.. I didn't feel strong anymore, I felt nothing really... I use to feel tough everywhere I went, but this night was different, it was like the power that was lent to me because of my spiritual path has been taken away...