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I don`t know how to put this well enough so i ask anyone for any opinion on this.

Every time i look myself at a mirror,i feel like there are two of me fighting..one was my beast...the other my guardian...

IT feels scary to look myself at mirrors...but i learnt that i was capable of something...i don`t know but..
i ask this now or not..my dreams were showing straight things and some weird things..

Weird things are what i can`t figure out..
I saw an eye...it look like two but it was one..
it was green...so i check out my eyes..
My eyes were like turning into..narrow..they were round at first!It all became weird then it turn oval..(i`m referring to the pupil of my eyes)

More of all,there was a dream that i was actually dreaming of dead bodies...around me were so many dead..it was like a library or a bank..i saw my unknown friend..in robes..
And the clouds...everytime i see it,its like making me doing things way beyond,i mean trying to make me.

My eyes are closing down everytime i wanted to pay attention to someone..i had to stracthed them hard..
Talk about that...The Voice i just had posted recently..
was like crying for help..
I hear ppl calling my names but none are around me.

I happened to have my muscles shaken when doing this..
and i have this pain on my head...its like someone was calling me to do something..

I don`t know who i really am...the true self of me,there`s always a feeling of an echo..

And i can`t know this cuz i saw a purple haze in my dreams...there was`nt a call..just plainless.

my powers are becoming more stronger than ever.
i`m having these random abilities..

What IS THIS?!!
I CAN`T EVEN SEE MYSELF..
I CAN`T GET TO MY PAST LIFE NO MATTER HOW HARD I TRIED..

AND I JUST CAN`T FEEL ME.

I`M not craving for power but its like something wanted me to be light and dark at the same time..

I JUST can`t get this off my head..
its been like this..
Plz i really need help..i can`t find anything of why i have these things and why my true self is crumbling..i don`t want SHIT from other ppl ok!!

I only want ppl who can actually help me more on this...
just needing help..for this..
it just can`t end...

PLZ i only need help from almost everybody concern of this..