Hi, I'm a beginner. For 2-3 days I've been reading books about magic, learning new spells and trying to understand the basis of all of it. I'm not gonna lie that I'm a bit impatient about trying spells. But I cannot stop myself from thinking them. So, I decided to cast my first spell today (i have tried 2 more spells but just for fun, i didn't expect anything serious to happen, it didn't happen anyways). So, I have taken notes about casting a circle, concentrating and the spell I want to perform. So yesterday, I gathered the elements etc. But, today I literally planned to do it. My plan was to cast a circle and try a not-so-hard spell. But everything went wrong. I believe I received signs to not to do it. For instance, today there was an earthquake where I live. It wasn't so small also. Then the bus I was in almost crashed a car. Then when I was preparing the circle in my room, the lighter I brought suddenly stopped working, other than that while getting the elements out of the closed, they all fell making a big noise. Also, I couldn't light the candle for a long time. I looked for other lighter and there was nothing. Then I used the stove and for no one to notice it, I covered it with a mug. Until I got back to my room, the candle blew out and the mug got dirty with black marks.
Now, I am a religious person so I was not sure about doing this. Because you know, it is a sin in most religions. But, I was sooo curious that I couldn't stop myself from trying it. I even looked for multicolored candles and couldn't find any after searching it in the most public place ever for two hours or so. I looked for some special stones in another place and I couldn't find anything. This made me think that maybe I really shouldn't do it.
Most of you are so much more experienced than me, I want to hear you thoughts and comments on this.
My feelings on this are if you feel you shouldn't be doing this then you shouldn't. Only because isn't it more important to do and practice something that you feel comfortable with than to settle curiousities? Witchcraft and practicing magic in its many forms isn't for everyone.
In my personal opinion, and this is just my opinion, if the Universe is putting such strong roadblocks in your way which are preventing you from casting this spell then it is likely that either the spell should not be cast at all or this is not the right time or the right spell to be casting. I would suggest performing whatever form of divination you practice and asking first...should I cast this spell? And secondly...is this the right spell to cast? And thirdly...is this the right time for casting this spell?
Thank you for your recommendations Lark. I hope these are the problems and not me doing magick generally. Now, I think it is not about the kind of the spell. Because while I was receiving those signs I changed my decision of spell a few times. What I'm trying to say is that I wasn't trying for the same spell all the time.
So, I think it's about the time or the lack of need for the spell. I've tried tarot from this site also and they were mostly depressive and negative but one of them said that I was going to start something new. So this gave me a little hope about it.
Thank you all for your help. I'll comeback if I try it again.