Hi i am really new to this and have never cast any spells i'm still learning as best i can as i'm on my own and have no one to learn with or point me in the right direction. I have introduced myself before here but ill health has stopped me coming on as often as i would like to so hello again its lovely to meet you.sorry if this thread is in the wrong place
But any to the point of this thread i've recently fallen out with my mother over a silly joke which i apologized for there and then, we've never had a good relationship since my brother passed away when i was 9 and my mother said she wouldn't mind if it was me and not him (she denies ever saying that) i tried to put it down to grief but since we fell out again she sent me a text message saying it again and that she no longer has a daughter. But the worst part for me is my dad came up demanding to know why i hadn't sent her a mothers day card. i just said why would i we are not speaking but without letting me continue and telling him why i did it he said he doesn't want to know me either and stormed out. This has destroyed me as i love him so much and i know i'm not going to have him for much longer he's now 80 and has early alzheimer's. I missed his 80th birthday which i cried my heart out over. Now my auntie has said she doesn't want to know me as i've hurt my mother, again she wasn't interested in my side of the argument but she's a hypocrite as she didn't speak to my mother for over 18 months for much less. I've lost everyone except my husband and daughter over a stupid joke,i've tried to make sure my daughter feels like she doesn't need to take sides she loves her grandparents and i'm fine with that its not her argument it's ours My mother is not a nice woman (many people in my village have said she's not well liked)and i don't wish her any bad but is there anything i can do to heal my heart and move on. If i didn't have my husband and daughter i don't think i'd be writing this, i have no friends as they all either moved out of the village or don't bother with me as going out with someone in a wheelchair is too much hassle (i found that out from a mutual friend)Is it me am i a bad person PLEASE HELP ME
To be honest, this is probably the best path for you. Magick isn't just about casting spells and waving wands. It is about discovering ones self and loving your self. You will find out who you are and your talents. You will learn of knowledge that most major religions keep away from people because it doesn't comply with what they want their image to be. This is the path to truth.
This is most unfortunate, I think all you can do at this point is to write a sincere letter to your Mother and beg her forgiveness, for the sake of your daughter. Send the same letter to your Dad and your Auntie.
It is hard when there are family misunderstandings and hurt feelings, you can only try to smooth things over. Tell them that no matter what they decide to do. that you love them.
I hope this can be sorted out. especially with your parents aging. They have to know that you love them.
i tried the letter but it was just returned unopened and phone calls which are unanswered. i cant write to or call my dad directly as he is partially sighted due to glaucoma and cant see letters and hes almost deaf too due to an accident so i cant call him on the phone. I know it sounds terrible but i don't want my mothers forgiveness it was a silly joke which she blew all out of proportion which as i say i apologized there and then for and i'm not giving her a third chance to wish me dead twice was crappy enough. i just don't know what to do. but thanks anyway
This is very unfortunate, I guess you have done all you can to make amends. Maybe it is just time to move on with your life.
I have friends that have Mothers who, for some reason, are simply mean people. It is very hurtful, but you just have to accept the fact that you are never going to have the kind of relationship that you desire.
All you can do now is to be happy with your own little family.