I am the kind of person that enjoys learning new things all of the time. I am constantly reading, or just experimenting with trial and error, and using the results to furhter myself.
As of late, however, I find myself with no drive. Nothing sticks out as being something I care to learn about. Just a few weeks ago I was reading two books and had lined what I was going to read next. I didn't lose interest at the time and simply lost the gumption to pick back up. This has happened to me before, but not for such an extensive period of time.
I suppose I have an idea as to what's going on, but not an idea on how to remedy it.
I'm also the kind of person that likes to share what I learn, and I find myself with few people to share it with, and fewer that care or take it seriously. On the flipside of that are the people that already know most of what I could share with them, and they are also few and far between.
I don't know if anyone else can make sense of this, but this whole thing has me at a standstill in my practice altogether. Like I have reached as far as I can reach. In my mind I want to reach further, but somehow I can't. If I were asked how things were going with my progression, I would answer that I haven't had the time. But I have. The truth is I have simply ignored everything and everyone that has to do with my practice. I apologize for that, I have no excuse. I don't really even have a reasonable explanation, because to be honest, I have no idea what's going on with me.
just thought I'd share what I know for right now.