It's good to beleive in a God, or a spirtual entity. I see the beleif like a spider web. The gods are the spiders, and those who worship them are connected to there web. You start off as a weak peice of web, and when you continue to meditate to them and thank them for what things they have given you ( Like visions, or the gift to see things in dreams, or help you open your abilities ), the gods come to your side of the web and make your connection alot tighter.
Through experience I beleive that beleifs lead you to different emotions. When I commited myself to Satan, everywhere I walked I felt strong and tough, and powerful. It was like anyone who messed with me would be hurt from my retaliations. But there was a day when that stopped happening, it was the day I lied about my spirtual path. Im not saying anything bad about Christianity, but when I was a Christian, long long time ago right before I became Athiest, I had no feel at all. It was like I knew Allah or God or whatever you wanna call him, was not in existance, and thats why I became atheist when I was about 12 I think. But now I commit myself to Thoth, I meditate to him alot, but the emotions I get from him are not the ones I become satisfied with. I feel like a normal person, but a smarter person, a more concentrated person when I commited myself to him. But the thing is... I want to have that same feeling when I was a Theistic Satanist again, it's like I feed off anger and that feeling I get when I use to be a Satanist.
But at the same time, I don't want to loose my abilities that Thoth has given me. I want to go back to Theistic Satanism, but im stuck in between a decision of what I should do.
Is this some sort of test ? I want to apoligise to Satan, and become a follower of him again, but I don't want to betray Thoth and lose his gift.
why dont you worship both follow both it is ok the gods test us in many ways they test how far we are willing to go the gods will undersatnd if you choose to meditate to more than 1 worship more than one as long as you dont completly stop on that specific god ur ok :D or so i see it as
I also see it kind of as a web... but more often I see we're the flies, caught fast on strings of instant gratification and lesser responsibility. Maybe the Big G wants us broken, but I believe if you empower your self first, then you can be a better acolyte: you'd be choosing out of respect, not desperation or greed; your own strength as it develops would make you an asset rather than a puppet of who/what you serve; and, because you'd be secure in yourself , you shouldn't care who judges you for your spiritual path.
Like files Aeon? I see more of it as a web, they send us messages through these webs. And I don't think Satan would allow me to beleive in another god, but thanks for the help.
