Blessed Be....I am a younger magick practicer and I am in desperate need of guidance from any like minded and experienced individual. I would greatly appreciate any advice; I can barely continue to guide myself through this Wiccan journey. All of my life I've been attracted to magick. But last year it all took a large turn, and now I am in the aftermath of many situations that leaves me wondering who I am now. When I was fifteen, I had another "on" moment with magick. So I logged back on my first account and eventually met a close friend on here. I am a writer, and usually my writing balances out how much magick I do and creates an equal balance between both. At that time I unexpectedly lost my second novel and I was devastated. I followed my friend and studied harder on Wicca. It got to the point that it affected parts of my life. Months into it, everything went to the worst and I reconnected with a boy who I dated in the past. We started dating again and he was strictly against magick. Throughout the months he faked a demon possession to try scaring me out of my new faith. I was crushed and still am. Now, I'm on a break from practice to revisit my writing before I proceed with religious issues. Everything has dawned on me and I feel as if I've lost myself, as if I'm no one for not having writing or Wicca. I feel I may be lying to myself about my love for Wicca and using it as an escape from writing failure. My friend and I aren't doing so well too. I also feel as if she was an influence. But then, I feel passion for this like always. I am very confused with myself. The past year has taken a toll on me and I'm not sure what to do. I wanted help from those that started witchcraft as a young teen that transitioned into their young adulthood. Is this rebellion or is this true? I need some insight.