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I was never quite the believer in vampirees, but when i was 7 years old i saw an angel standing in my doorway, i was speechless, i knew something was up with me, when as soon as the angel rose thru my doorway and vanished i was able to run downstairs crying telling my mother what i saw. But in the past 3 years or so ive felt an emptyness or darkness within me, i dont feel really any emotions and i was raised in a good home (thankfully) but i feel like im a vampire within. Please can anyone hep me with fully becoming one. Ive tried everywhere.