A month ago this boy I had feelings for the past couple of years finally asked me out. He asked to come over and I said yes. He kissed me for the first time and it was my first kiss. He told me I was the most amazing and beautiful girl he's ever met and that he wanted to be with me. We slept together and even though he said he would stay with me he left. He told me that he could not be with me anymore because he was a Catholic and that night when we slept together he went against his morals. Im not sure what to believe anymore. Before that night we were good friends and now were nothing. He continues to avoid me and I cant take it anymore. I am in love with him and theres nothing I can do to make him stay. I spent so long crying and being upset and now I am just angry. Hes been talking to one of my friends and now they are growing closer. I am a psychic and saw a vision of them getting together. And I hate it. She doesnt even know what happened between me and the guy, because he made me promise not to tell anyone. Im not going to cast a love spell because I don't want fake love. I want it to be as real as the love I gave to him before he hurt me. I want revenge. I would never want to harm him physically or do anything to hurt him on the outside or make him sick. I just want him to feel the pain I felt. Im tired of practicing white magic and helping people all of the time. I sacrifice myself to help people every single day and I give people happiness but I am always the one, in the end, to get hurt. I am an empath and can feel everyone else's pain and I take their pain and I have ways to making people truly happy. I see their darkness then I bring out the light in them. I always love a world that is true hatred towards me and Im done loving. There is this darkness in me and it is powerful. I have been turning away from this side for a long time but now I want to embrace it. I can do many things and what I want the most right now is revenge, I have spells in my grimoire however they will do too much harm to him. I just want him to feel heartbreak. Because I have this feeling that he used me for my body. He told me that night that I could trust him and I did. He lied. I am unsure if I should cast an impotence spell (which I have done in the past) or another one. I just don't want there to be consequences. Everyone thinks I am soft and fluffy and people run over me all of the time because I am kind and it is because I love, that they portray me as weak, which I am not. However, I am still working on control and I don't want to go too far. Sometimes I am afraid of what i am capable of. I have done some pretty messed up things and I am conflicted because as much as I hate him, I still love him. And as much as I would never want to hurt him, I still want my revenge and to let him feel the same pain hes caused me.
A boy becomes a man when he truly and unconditionally loves a woman for her entire being and her soul.
In my short life, I've already learnt that boysain't worthnothing. I've had guys tell me the same thing;that I'm special, beautiful, that "you're everything I've ever wanted". And then they stop seeing you, keep making stupid excuses, and don't tell their parents/friends about you, etc.
My advice is to have unconditional love for yourself; to trust yourself, to rely on yourself only. Boys only want you for gratification and nothing else.
Having said that, a revenge spell may be a bit rash. With you having many powerful gifts, black magic mayreek havoc in your life if you believe in karma, or the three-fold law.
Personally, I would just try my best to forget about him and move on. Focus on yourself, treat yourself. Because no one is more important than yourself. You should learn to rely on yourself, as yes the world of love is a cruel one.
If you are really desperate to perform a spell, and divination says it is the right course of action, consider performing a binding spell. You can make it so he unable to harm others in the same way he did to you. He also won't be able to harm you again.
Another spell you could try would be "to fix a broken heart" to make it easier to move on and get your strength back.
If you retain faith in love, faith in yourself, and faith in helping others, all the good things you've done will one day come flooding back to you. You'll find who you deserve.
Let me tell you that I do understand your pain, men can really mistreat women sometimes. Take that as a lesson to life, not to trust men or people generally so easily. I guarantee you that people like himself usually get what they deserve from the universe and end up being lonely and miserable.
However, I do get your eagerness for revenge. Since you've asked for a very specific spell that won't be too harmful, to me it sounds like it would be the best to make your own spell that suits you and what you need specifically.
I'm sure you'll find true love one day and have someone who truly deserves you.
Hi lucindiana I defenetly understand you , if you want there is also a nightmare spell that sends the target a terrifying nightmare it works well just need to cast it ones and it works , hope this was helpful somehow
That part about how you dont want fake love? All love is real love, It doesnt matter if its origin wasnt real it would still be real love. Other than that I reckon you should rip that guys chest open and stomp on his heart to compensate to what he did to you
As someone who practices both black and white magick so gray magick hehehe ^^ sorry, bad joke. But in all seriousness I think maybe you should send a spirit after him or have him experience terrifying nightmares or maybe even hallucinations if he hurt you that much. You really are a good person at heart and you don't deserve something like that.