I have been feeling more and more connected to the wolf. Yeah it may make no sense or sound weird but thats why I am asking. For example I will be watching animal documentaries and when I see deer or elk I look at it and feel like I have seen it before like I hunted down that animal and now looking at its family member. Its so weird like I will stay up all night and when I try to sleep I wake right back up(I still manage to get like 3 hours of sleep). I'm not affected in the morning and feel energetic.
If you know whats happening or have n idea please share.
It sounds to me like you are already drawing your own conclusions, which might be a bit far-fetched considering the direction your are strongly hinting in your post.
In my own opinion, you like wolves, and may be obsessing over them, overthinking about them at the moment, and probably making some unrealistic assumptions based on these things.
As for your insomnia, I would suggest establishing a healthier sleep pattern.
It sounds to me like you are coming across a few ideas and experiences that would fall in line with the concepts of Otherkin and Therians. And I am guessing you are struggling with the thought that you might fit in to one of those groups?
Genuine inquiries into this sort of a topic are hard for others to answer, primarily because it is about finding a definition and recognition for something that is personal and subjective in nature. It is also not usually a topic handled specifically through SoM here. there are a few people who consider themselves a part of the community around these parts (myself included) but the majority of people present find the topic to not really be relatable to magic and magical practices.
I'm happy to help if i can, and i sent through a private mail already to that effect. but in all honesty you might be better served in a more specifically otherkin community. if you drop a google search for 'therian', or 'otherkin' forums it should open up some resources you can look into.
One good example is http://www.therian-guide.com/index.php/6-community.html?lang=en
What you are describing are instincts that you have assumed wolves have and now convinced yourself you have, which you very well may. You might simply be more connected with animalistic instincts.
But honestly, the idea that you are a wolf born into the wrong body is not something I have ever heard of before or something that seems very likely. Logically, if you consider the mental awareness of a wolf versus the mental awareness of a human, it really doesn't add up in a literal sense.
Spiritually, maybe you connect very strongly with the symbolism portrayed by wolves throughout history, mythology, legend, or literature. Maybe you are drawn to traits that are commonly associated with wolves such as being part of a pack, or animalistic aggression, or being a bit of a hermit.
You can relate to wolves. I believe if you relate very strongly to a certain animal, they call it your spirit animal and this is the sort of energy you might channel when casting, but honestly believing that you are a wolf born into the wrong species is something else entirely.
