Hello, I have been interested in magick for 3 and a half years now.
I usually performed spells following the instructions or if casting my own spells, I knew what I was doing. Lately, I noticed a difference. For example, I've started muttering some really weird words along with the spells, it seems to make the spells stronger, but I have no idea what the words mean, neither do I remember any of the words after I cast the spell.
This just feels like I am not in control of my own magick. Can anyone help me with the situation or has anyone ever experienced this before?
Frightened of my powers.