It's been a while since I logged in, but I need someone's advice, anyone's advice, for this hellhole I've recently found myself stuck in (apologies for the language). It all started this past January when my ancestor told me through the Ouija board that my reincarnated soul mate might not remember his past life, or mine, but he is looking for me, and that I would recognize him within this year. Fast forward to September where I was meditating as usual and come across the same cave that I always find myself in, so nothing unusual there. What was unusual was this black figure who I thought wanted to harm me, so I attacked him/her/it but it beat me, told me he/she/it would not give up on me, and then I was brought out of my meditation. At the time I was considering swearing into an asexual lifestyle in which I would never even consider marriage. Some time after a guy who I was somewhat acquainted with approached me at church, and we talked for a while. At the time, I thought nothing of that or the black figure incident, but as time wore on and the guy and I began to talk (and flirt a little) more, it wasn't until just this last week when things really went awry. On thursday I discover the strangest feeling at the back of my cranium and in my lower back, almost as if I've been attached to feeding tubes in those spots. I felt a higher being (God/Jesus/whoever you want it to be) pull them out, claiming something about cheating. The following Sunday (November 1st) I talked to the guy again and asked him how he was doing, and he said he was dandy. I asked him why dandy and he gave me a whole list of reasons, but something felt a little off. Later on yesterday I discovered the tubes had returned to their original spots, and not even my friend (who is skill at astroprojection) could get rid of them completely. Today is where things got worse. I was talking to this same friend about the tubes when I felt incredible pain in my lower back and the back of my skull. I could only describe it as being burned on a mental, physical, and astro-physical level. Turns out those tubes were attached to someone on the other end. I don't want to point fingers at the guy I've been talking to, since he is a natural flirter and probably meant nothing by anything he said. Besides the real problem are the tubes connecting our souls. Somehow I know that this is black magic and therefore very illegal, but since we've been attached I've felt nothing coming from the other side except love and lust. I don't want to be dragged into the wrong side just because of this black figure who claimed it was just an experiment, but I don't know what else to do. Anyone who reads this, if you know of any way I can undo this mess, please tell me. I don't want to be trapped. Not like this, anyway.
Well, one thing that came to mind while reading this, some people say in their handfasting [wedding] vows to find each other in the next life. It sounds sweet, but eternity does seem like a bit much. Perhaps your past life made such a vow, in that life it made sense, this one you might be walking a different path.
I wouldn't throw yourself at the first guy who flirts with you. You mentioned swearing to an asexual lifestyle, did you mean you were considering becoming a nun or monk? I would do more meditation and soul searching before pursuing either path, just to be sure. Perhaps he is your soul mate from a past life, but he could also be a temptation to try and sway you from your path, or someone you will love [but not your 'soul mate']
Regarding the pain, I would consult a doctor to be sure it's nothing medically wrong. Spiritually I'm not 100% sure, you could try cleansing, protection, and shielding. These should cleanse any negative energy and protect you from any curses or negativity sent your way.
Thank you for your advice. I didn't mean pursuing either nun or monk nor do I want to, but I considered stepping away from romance completely. As to the problem at hand, my friend and I confronted the asshole (pardon the language) responsible in the other realm and, with the help of a spiritual friend, we were able to get the tubes out of me. Now there is a black rope wrapped around the right side of my chest (I'm a girl so hopefully you'll know what body part I'm referring to specifically). My friend who I mentioned earlier is skilled in astral projection and was able to locate the other end of the rope which is tied around the ankle of a guy I'm acquainted with. The thing is this guy has a dark red, almost lust-like aura which would fit the behavior of the perpetrator behind this "experiment". We're going to try to follow the rope tonight in the other realm and see where it leads us, if it doesn't lead us to the same person. Thankfully, the worst is over. I hope.
I forgot to mention that the guy on the other end of the rope is the same guy I am acquainted with, the one who acted a little funky on Sunday. Also thankfully there is nothing medically wrong with me because the pain in my cranium and lower back stopped completely.
Thanks. Fortunately we're not much hurt, but that's pretty much the best news. We accidentally meditated at the wrong times, so whoever the perpetrator was was able to not only hide his aura from us (though my friend thinks she saw a glint of red) but also toy with us and torment us individually. I think I'm still attached to him somehow so if anyone can check it out, see once and for all who is on the other end of the rope, I would very much appreciate it.
Hopefully this is the last update to this nightmare. On Thursday when i saw the guy in question again, my friend astral projected and saw that his aura, which is usually lusty red, is almost nonexistant and there was some sort of shadow standing next to him. Later that night that shadow acted on its own and slit my throat in the other realm, leaving me unable to talk in this world, feeling nauseous, and all sorts of problems. This act leads me to believe that this shadow is a separate entity and not a part of my supposed soul mate. Again, let me reiterate that I only have suspicions that the guy in question is involved, nothing is certain about whether he actually is involved or not. Back to the update: I was dragged in the middle of this battle on the astral realm between the soul and the shadow and, finally having enough, I smote the shadow's ass and believed the worst to be over. Unfortunately that was not the case. The shadow returned and used its tubes to attack me, making me into a suicidal lunatic for a good half hour before I finally snapped off the tubes and snapped out of the mental state I was trapped in. Now I'm thinking the shadow isn't a shadow because it/he can clearly live on its own, but is instead some kind of demon that can take the worst in a person and drag it out, making my supposed soul mate a lustful masochist and me into a suicidal lunatic (in that order). Does anyone know or have an idea about who this demon is? If I know his/its name, that'll already give me an advantage over it.