i am new here and to magic as well. I have certain problems in my life at the moment, and that's why i started to searching for "metaphysical" solutions.
Almost 2 months ago, all of a sudden, my GF broke up with me. I was suspicious that she had someone else, now i am almost sure about it. Anyway at the beggining i was under shock. I was jealous and desperate, tried to take my mind off her. But nothing helped. Tried also dating other girls, but the relief was short.After two weeks i searched help on the internet, and i ended up to spells sites. The only experience i had before, was at the age of 14/15 (almost 20 years ago) and i must say it was somehow effective but scary.
so, i was hesitating about spells and co, knowing that nothing is without a "price". Even in times when i was really desperate and helpless, i resisted casting the first love spell availabla, and i thank God for it.
I made a huge research, what kind of spells there are, how dangerous are they, when and how to use them etc etc...As time went by, i hoped that i was heading for the "cure" by myself, as time heals everything, but ufortunatelly that is not the case. Maybe i am a little better than 2 months ago, but not really good.
Anyway, here is the main question. I do not know exactly what to do. I love her somehow, i feel betrayed and want her to run after me and kneel, i want her to understand that what she did was not fair, most of all i want to forget. My egoism, my self esteem, my dignity were and are very hurt and very low, and to be honest, i want her to suffer FOR ME a little bit, but of course in a way i suffered (nothing really bad to happen to her). I want her back, but i do want the girl i knew back, not the girl she become the last 2 months. I want to regain my self esteem, my confidence, i want to forget her...As you see, i am really in a mess...
I thought at the beggining of a love spell, then of a "get over your ex" spell, then a "confidence" spell, a ...i didn't try any of them. Today i made my first spell, a "contact me" spell, which till now it was not effective. From that moment i feel a headache (more like a heavy-head), but i think it has nothing to do with the spell.
What is your opinion? What shall i do? I am really very sorry for the huge post, but i needed to get them out of me! I would be very happy for any help and response!