Name: Raeclast
Birthday: Jun 19 1993
Location: US, Gaffney, SC
Gender: Male
Last Seen: Thu, 28 Jun 2018
Membership: Member
Personal Bio
I'm not sure what I should put into this exactly other than my situation and goals because of certain problems I have been stuck dealing with for a while. My reason for seeking this site out is a hope that I can find answers as well as help as well as knowledge.
My current life is somewhat pathetic and miserable, I know a harsh way to start out right? I'm not going to lie because I am looking for honesty and have a real objective. My life has definitely not been going the way I ever intended it to but maybe the way it is "suppose to". Though I'm unsure but falling into a situation where life is increasingly difficult and a feeling of powerlessness can cause one's mind to wander.
It always seems like things go bad for me personally as well as my family and I want an escape from that or better, an actual solution. I genuinely want to learn about magik, energy manipulation or anything else I can that could be of use. When I was younger, a woman my dad was seeing knew about things like a saiyance, I probably butchered spelling but we tried together with me, my dad, herself and her two daughters. My dad said he saw my deceased grandfather appear during it. Another occurence wasn't an apparition appearing but instead, we sat outside looking at the stars. I was told to focus really hard on a star and wish something in my mind and see what happened. So I did and I wasn't entirely sure what was going to happen but I was open minded about it and did so. I thought about making the star's light dimmer and gradually it seemed to actually look that way. I kept focusing on it and then the star seemed to actually vanish or go out. It didn't happen just once but twice the same night. I don't know if it was coincidence or some freak chance but it happened.
Remembering things like that, some of the weird feelings I sometimes get as well as my interest in most things "magical" lead me to look into things. I haven't found anything credible yet but I hope to change this and my life one day and hopefully for the better. I think I would be fine with whatever though as I'm borderline homeless if being entirely honest. No vehicle, no insurance or form of income other than the monthly support the man which my mother is seeing receives. To anyone this concerns, I am willing to learn but I have no way of purchasing anything... so I'm sure my options are slim to nothing I'm sure, just like every day life but I'm being hopeful. Me as a person however I'm not very talkative normally unless something interests me and I tend to keep to myself. I do better when being approached instead of doing the approaching myself. This is probably because of how I grew up and problems I've been dealing with for a while. I can't really say that I don't have any confidence in myself because it's been going for so long that its changed into something more neutral. I don't know if that is good or but but I'm here so I can learn. I don't know where to start, what resources to look for or who to really talk to so any guidance would be appreciated.
