hello to everyone!
im going to be completely honest.
ive always had a feeling that something else existed, something that i could controle, and i want to learn about it. i want to know what there really is that exists both within and around me.
i recently had an experience that both horrified me, and interested me, and if you dont mind i would like to share it with you:
in grand blanc, michigan there are the ruins of the old mott farm. they are back on a trail behind the library parking lot. all i really know about its history is that it burned down a long time ago, and was the practice site of native american religion (medicine wheels were the proof of that), wicca (pentacles drawn on rocks, trees, and such.), and belive it or not christianity. a fiew friends and i decided to go "ghost hunting" to scare a fiew other friends of ours, but what i experienced was completely unexpected.
as soon as i entered the wooded area i felt a strange energy, and it was like i was feeding off of it. it was strange; it gave me arrogance, the feeling like i was so much more powerful than all of the others around me.
we entered the clearing where the house once stood, and we were walking on the ruins of the houses foundation and something drew me to look behind myself. as i turned i felt like something was there that didnt want us to be. once i had turned a full 180 i saw a man standing there, but i wasnt frightened, i was like i could see him, but i couldnt, like when you glimpse something in your peripheral vision. he was tall bald, and looked as if he was wearing a black jacket with a stained white button down shirt under it. he started to walk towards me, but dissapeared.
instantly i knew that we should leave. we started to walk back, and i could feel presences all around us, (a fiew others did aswell, so i know that im not insane), i would see vague shapes of people but nothing as solid as the man that i saw before.
as we left i felt as if i should stop, so i sent the others ahead, and stood my ground. i felt that i should tell them that "im here, in your place, as only a visitor, and a spectator. i dont mean any harm to you, or your home." i focused on that phrase for only a fiew minuts, and a form appeared in front of me, only inches from my face. it was like the air took a shape... i couldnt make out distinct features, except for that of a human shape.
it stared me dead in the face, but i held my ground, despite the fact that i wanted to run away and cry in a corner. the presence paced around me in a full circle, and ended up on my right side. i felt it place a firm hand on my back, and the other was pressed against my chest. i felt it grip with the hand that was on my chest, and instantly i felt ok. i felt calm and relaxed, but i also felt like the entire universe was pouring all of itsself into me...
im a believer. i know that this is truth. so please, anyone who is willing, teach me... i want to know everything.