I have been buying leather journals for the purpose of writing a spellbook
But I then ruin it by writing the channeled messages of spirits all over it and through out the book.
When I look back on it after in out of the daze of channeling spirits
I feel a deadly and destructive angry presence
And the book is covered in cursive scribbled lines sigils strange names and depictions of monsters and demons
Can any one tell me why this is?