Hi all, i realise my post will most likely get me shunned, but i have thought this through and am willing to suffer the backlash if it comes as I'm already in hell.
in 2011 i met a young lady via work who was going to play a big part in my life, she taught me life humility and love, introduced me to her family.
in Jan 2012 she was pregnant with my child which we lost and things went down hill, i stayed supported her through the depression,eating disorders and therapy.
she got out of the slump and blossomed we got stronger, i was there all the time and so she took me for granted, a month ago she smashed my heart into a million pieces telling me she is seeing another, i cry daily and am hurt, i have contemplated suicide but i have a son so i can't do that, i now realise i must do the unethical and learn to conjure what i can to help myself.
I realise people will say move on etc., i have tried this and slept it a half dozen women and dated as many but my heart wants her, i figure with the daily pain and nightmares I'm already dead so why worry about karma ?
maybe i'm self serving but i love her and i can't go on , i realise i may die of a broken heart, has anybody ever cast a spell and got their lover back ?
i'd appreciate replies and if this is not to everyone's taste and i get free will nut i have tried and failed to let go.judge me if you will but this is my path.
I could SUGGEST many things, but I would be only a trifle to you. I want you to know that suicide is not a possibility and that you may want to consult a psychiatrist. Everyone on here cares about everyone on here; we are a community. I apologize to my greatest that I MYSELF cannot provide you the help you require. I understand how you feel, even though I am only 14. I hope that anyone else can aid you on your path, but I cannot, but I wanted to tell you how much we all care.
That is something terrible that happened to you and I am sorry it did. However I do want you to understand that magic is not the solution if your partner does not want to be with you. Spells cannot force someone to be with you if they do not want to. Since you mention you have a child it takes a troll on my feet that the law let the mother get away with it? And you also have to consider that since you have a child you should not sleep with other women as it will have a negative imperssion on the child. Suicide is not the option here because we all have ups and downs in our lives and those are temporary as time goes on they will get better but if you expect things to get better overnight then that will only hurt you further, and I am glad you've considered your child. But I do want you to know that if your partner does not wish to be with you, then nothing can force them to do so.
If you want to do anything to bring her back, or try to at least mend things between the two of you, you're going to need to work on feeling better, first. Any kind of magic you do is going to be heavily weighed down by these negative feelings you're having.
If she's seeing someone else, you'd have to effectively try to break them up before you bring her back. There are ways to do both of those things, but they are hard work, they take a lot of time, and if you are feeling suicidal, you need medical help, not magic.
Try to calm down, breathe, and come back around when you feel stronger and not so defeated. Be strong.
I am going to be completely honest with you and here it is.
If you think your suffering, miserable and lonely now your in for a huge nasty surprise. Forcing anyone to go against their free will is not only wrong but (in my own personal opinion) a person that does such a thing deserve every single bad nasty thing this great universe of our gives them. I'm only warning you so you will be prepared and expecting it when "It Hits The Fan"
You could try some form of therapy first. Don't do drugs. Get a hobby. Don't be a slut or date a bunch if people. Give yourself time to heal. I'd say give it a year of no sex or dating, focus on the life you have with your son, find a hobby, be grateful for the things you have and have had. I wouldn't conjure up anything if u were you, especially since you're in such an emotional state. Do some purifications and cleansings, maybe meditate. Get some therapy, whether it's talking to a friend or family member, group therapy, or seeing a psychiatrist. And don't hurt yourself or others. Also, if you need to use magick to get her back, you don't need her and she wasn't for you and she is definitely not yours. What she did was wrong, but forcing her into a relationship is also wrong. She wouldn't be happy and an unhappy couple is not the best environment for your son. Think if him. And spend time with him and some friends. You can pull through this. You're stronger than you think.