I'm not normally superstitious. I like to think I'm mostly rational and calm ect. but I have never ever been this scared in my life.
I recently took a job as a live-in nanny. It's hardly glamorous but the kid is adorable so all's good. Except the house. I'm sitting here and it's like sitting in a tomb. It's just oppressive and I have constant butterflies in my stomach. And nightmares, oh my goodness, I don't want to sleep.
I think the worst part is that my nightmares aren't about me. They're about the baby. Sometimes, I hear footsteps pacing about his room or I'll close the door and then walk upstairs and it will be open. It's gotten so bad that sometimes I feel like I have to like stand vigil outside his door, just in case.
If I was scared for myself, I would just leave but leaving isn't really an option when a young child is involved. Furthermore, I am undecided as to whether or not I'm going insane or just whipping myself up into hysteria.
Has anyone else had any experiences like this? Any advice?
Just what is going on!?!