what is it i do?

Its very interesting what you can do, it seems to be very advanced energy work, how you were able to become so advanced without many years of practice is beyond me. But if you keep practicing and researching i am sure that you will find answers.

I appriciate that man. I have only been at this for about 5 months but I've already learned a lot and I hope to show more people that magic is a force of life and protection. Mind you I know a lot more. I'm far more adept at working earth and fire energy, creating contructs to defend areas and making earth and fire energy into subforms such as sand, glass and molten energy. I just need tips on pure energy manipulation.

If you want you can email me and we can talk about energy manipulation

Power is infinite, and "maximums" are all in perception. When you feel that something is evil or malignant, it is only natural for your fight or flight reaction to kick in, and for you to therefore feel more powerful as adrenaline floods you. Feeling more powerful, you simply are more powerful because you stop viewing yourself with the same limitations.

What I mean by going out lit up like a torch, is that with all of your defensive measures and offensive preparations, you go in girded for war. Anything seeing you gets wary, immediately, and those that feel capable might challenge you on sight. It is much the same reaction of the general population if you were to walk into a convenience store armed and wearing body armor - it gives the impression of menace, or the preparation to menace, even if that is not truly your intent.

Plus if you naturally run very positive in terms of energy, this attracts attention. The brightest flame attracts the most moths.

Spirits are everywhere, and when we are children we see them most. Some feed on fear, but most just observe, and seem terrifying as we become more aware of them.