Sorry for no reply in a while, been pre-occupied. I have found sorrow can put a knock on your focus quite a bit, trying to find my balance to a degree again I think, I did manage to AP last night, though can't remember the event, I remember myself leaving, then woke up an hour later.
these things take time, take heart , practice and dedication and you will overcome, a wise lady once whom i have known for 20 years ( outside of cyber land ) said to me learn the basics, ok i thought, then she said beprepaired to learn all your life :-) keep going you will get their. the most important thing is that you enjoy what you are doing and learning. old cliche here but a true one, we cant run before we walk, try putting what you have learnt into a live situation..... try to creat a protection sheild whilst you are walking along the street, it may only appear for a split second at first but it will show you that you can do it and that its not just your mind being convinced that you can if that makes sense? bright blessings macus
On the 26th, I had an experiance, I was not relaxed, meditating or anything I was just there as I usually do trying to reach out to what ever else is there. I felt a kinda chill on my left side of my body and arm. It stayed there a while before disappearing, was a nice feeling. Not sure if it was a brother but it shows I am hopefully getting my chakras or body is getting back in sync.
Sorry has been no reply to this post but recently I have been unable to do anything, yesterday I suddenly felt a build up of energy around my main body and shoulders, I have not been able to meditate or anything it just came. Last night I went for a couple of beers, decided I did not want any but came home and meditated, I was able to focus and stay in that state without any random thoughts coming to me. So I thought I will try drawing energy from the air around me and I could, only it suddenly stopped when I tried to visualize a ball of energy running up and down my arms, I had a sudden mental picture of my brother enter my mind and it disappeared as quick as it came. At first I was a little upset, but maybe he does not want me to give up yet in trying to talk/contact what ever it will take to reach him again. After last night I am going to be putting 500% into my learning and practicing.
davorus, i think it is good that you are keeping going, i would if i were you for the time being just concentrate on the basics, try not to force things shall i say, patience is the key here i feel. study one subject at a time . persevere and it will come :-) many blessing to you macus
I would never give up, in starting to learn here one thing I have noticed is my mood is better, I have a better understanding when looking at things. I am not saying I know the answers straight away but I now look more broadly for the answer. I bought myself some stones to help with my chakras and I feel them working I can feel energy flows unblock and moving clearly through my body when I meditate with them. I struggle but I will overcome what is wrong, I always stick to what I take on, I always eventually overcome that which I want to achieve, though I may be slightly blocked in my senses it does not mean I can not help and concentrate on this coven, it has become a part of my life in a way I never thought possible the people in it a family of the coven and the ways in which we chose to learn regardless of what it may be. I look forward to maybe others writing of there personal experiences in learning so maybe we can try and adapt from others like I have been writing on here.
Once again I seem to have gone through a change, might be because I tried to hard, because of my brother passing away or a combination of both. I have found myself again, feeling charged for no reason, again I do feel this may be from an emotional point rather a change but also my dreams have come back and now I dream of sitting in my living room, only there is no windows. All I do is sit there, Rashnu asked if I ever ask anything I did not because it felt like I was alone, next time I will ask questions.
I have done my first tarot reading with the help of Eli, it was a brilliant experiance as well as a big learning curve. I still yet have a lot to understand to the regards of understanding the cards and what I feel toward that card. With more help from one of my new teachers I am now on a new path in divination. So I can Channel and now use Divination.
I am having real difficulties in trying to work out what spirits, or what ever it maybe is after and communicating with them, I seem to be blocked at only getting a light buzz in my head of been right and a small throb headache for wrong, can anyone help please.
