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I recently asked the Goddess for guidance after having weird dreams and sudden desires to research vampires. Also in the process of deleting all my status updates on facebook after having a bad feeling in the pit of my stomach and the urge to delete stuff... After deleting most of my updates I have felt more calm, but had to stop cause I needed sleep. I still have the urge to do it.
Anyway, that's not why I came here... I need help interpreting tarot cards, I've had them since moving to Perth in December and use them infrequently, but like with facebook I had a sudden urge to use them. I was replying to an e-mail then without thinking got up and grabbed the cards. I looked at all the cards before shuffling and doing a five deck shuffle- and I knew what the first card would be... I don't know how, I just knew.
I split the deck into five piles except the first pile was just one card- Birth-Rebirth
I really need help with this, so I'd be ecstatic if I could get some feedback from some experienced people.
(I am really new to all this)

Question: If I continue on this path of researching and searching for vampires- what will happen? (other thought running through my head ?I need to know that there is more to life, that it isn't just living and dying?)

Deck used: The wisdom of Avalon; Oracle cards

Birth-Rebirth: (right way up)
Inspiration and new life are here! Rejoice, for spring is in the air and you're beginning again. This marker bodes well for any new project, endeavour, relationship, or idea to take shape and be birthed into the world. It also reminds you that anything old or painful can be brought forth or transformed by a new and creative perspective.

Perception: (upside down)
This marker requires you to contemplate how you look at the world. Through what eyes do you see? Do you peer through those of prejudice or judgement? Are you viewing your present circumstances by projecting your past? This is the time to slow down to observe from all angles. This calls for objectivity and a willingness to examine your life and others' through a neutral pair of eyes. Within you awareness is transcending your ego's separated sense of self. Rise above it- see through your soul and know that things aren't always what they appear.

The Mystery: (right way up)
This marker directs you into the unknowable mystery of your journey. It is the sacred place where all things are created but are not yet formed. It points the way to pure power and potential, which meets the magic of intention. It tells you that the magical unknowable forces of destiny and fate are working in your life. The forces that you can never fully understand or control are, indeed, weaving their magic around you to help you fulfil your true purpose.

The Merlin: (right way up)
Alchemy, justice, balance
The Merlin is the messenger of initiation and the alchemy and is both the Magician and the High Priest. He is the masculine keeper of magic and has the ability to turn iron ore into gold. The Merlin says, ?You have all you need to move forward. Rejoice that all the elements you require for success are, indeed, present!' You are given notice that, when it comes to your life and its purpose, the magical aspect of the Merlin can be summoned to help you find an answer that is within you. When the Merlin appears, he tells you that justice will be done in all matters of your query, but not by any forceful action. Instead, ask yourself what you need to do to bring balance into your life. Are you working too hard, perhaps over thinking things? Do you have enough downtime? (I currently have too much downtime)

Wealth: (right way up)
This is the marker of abundance and success, and the achievement of a goal. It can refer to real riches and tangible results, such as money or possessions, but it can also portend a time of emotional satisfaction. It's always a reminder that all things can be attained. Know that wealth includes sharing, for this card is also a reminder to give something away to help others- be it money, time, or anything of value. Sharing will always ensure the flow of wealth. This marker is a very fortunate omen.


The reason that I ask for help is that, I can read other people really well and tell some things about other people. But as soon as I enter the picture I draw a blank, I can't read myself or other peoples intentions involving me.
Thank you in advanced,
Jade~