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Quick question on something very important to me. I had a voice in my head that would constantly talk to me and it was nice. We learned a lot about each other and she described herself as female and with red eyes and chestnut hair and one day I ironically said ''it would be cool if we could meet in real life'' and she went silent. This was two months ago and she hasn't returned and I don't know what to do with myself. I lost my guiding star. I feel like I'm constantly being watched and I'm always being followed. Please someone help me find her.