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Please if there is anyone who even thinks they know something that might even help a little I beg you to tell me. I have been married for over 3 years to the father of my 3 children whom I've known and loved for over 12 years. I'm not exaggerating when I tell you I have done EVERYTHING in my power to connect with him, make him happy, and keep up the intamacy part as well. He says he loves me often, but it's been years since he showed even a minute of affection. He convinced me his drive for that sort of thing was just gone. And I have believed him over 2 years. He regularly says think less things that can hurt but I took it as he just didn't know how to communicate. The other night however he was extremely harsh about my appearance and so I decided (for the first time ever) to go take a look through his phone. Maybe he was complaining to his friends about what I was doing wrong. I needed to know what to do, what to change. I wasn't ready for what I found. Nothing in his messages about me, but pictures of his coworker.. and not of her face. I'm at a total loss I don't know what to think or do. My life has crashed down around me and I have no control over any of it.
Anyway, my question to you all out there, What do I do? What kind of spell should I try? What will help me, where should I even start?