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What to say. I am a mother of 2. Wife and I am 39. Used to be so happy and now I am sad and alone. I am in this dark place I need to figure out how to get out of. A little back ground.
Did not marry the man I wanted to spend my whole life with. But I love the one I married.

He is going blind from a eye condition called RP for short. He is 40. So he drinks a lot.

Lost my first child at 20 was.

My second child is going to be 13. When he was 3 he was diagnosed with stage 4 germ cell tumor. He is cancer free as of Aug. 2004

My third child is now 10. He is active but there is just not something right with him. Been to doctors and they don't know. He can not go to the bathroom for weeks.

I am sad and lonely. So I took to websites to find friends. Bad idea fell for a man I have never seen before. But sure he is just a dream and not a real person.

I feel like I am in this very dark place and it won't let me out. So I have been looking for ways besides medicine to help me figure this out. I have no clue about any of this stuff but I have a open mind. I believe in spirits ghosts and that anything is possible.

I did do something when I was younger and wondering if this is the cause of how I got hear. Will tell if you truly want to help or be my friend.