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A few days ago I had a scary experience when I tried to go into trance, was it called, the state between conscious and subconscious. I would say I DID succeed but...
Anyhow, it started like this. I was on the bed at about 8pm ready to go into 'trance'. It took about a few minutes until my mind was about to be asleep. Right about the time when 'it started'.
(Okay, I'm not the best at explaining things but I will give it my all.)
I was all relaxed and about to lose conscious when suddenly, a painful amount of vibrations came over me. I would describe it as like being hit by a truck or vibrations, or getting struck by lightning or a meteor. It was just that scary. I felt my whole body vibrating on a level that even my physical self felt a little pain. To top it off when that happened, I could hear screams or peoples(whatever that was). there were many of them screaming in my head all around me. The image was of blackish and reddish and screaming of many,many people which was really scary.
(I forgot to mention, I have a gift or clairaudient and can sometimes hear spirits or pick up phrases of words from the spiritual planes)
Moving on, I persisted and struggled to keep my conscious in the midst of the chaos of the painful-ish vibrations, and terrifying screams. I am a 15year old, even at my age I expected to be a little more brave but it was seriously terrifying. But I didn't stop at that.
Eventhough it was scary, managed to compose myslef and imaging white light around me and that I stared breathing white light and exhaling dark, negative energy. It was a method I read in meditation forums to cleanse oneself. Mind you, even when I did that the screaming and the pain did not stop , but a few seconds later it somehow ceased away but not completely.
In this state I was aware of my physical body still in the physical realm and while my spirit or mind was in another place. I could see and feel both physically and mentally at the same time,it was super weird and also this was a first experience succeeding in both conscious and subconcious states. And I am certain sure that I am not just dreaming and spouting nonsense.
Alot more happened when I managed to stabalize myself and my consciousness(although not completely)At a point when the screaming had ceased, I remember questioning in my head
"Are my spirit guides here?"
to which i expected the answer "yes" because I was desperately needing help because I was still super scared. for this first question I did not hear a specific answer in my head like i would normally hear with clairaudience, so i think that the 'yes' word that popped in my head was just my expectations. Or that my mind was clouded in expectations to hear any messages.
Then I asked the second question, "Are you my spirit guide?"
this time it shocked me because I heard a very clear voice
"Yes, I am."
I was kinda reassured just a little bit but still pretty scared so I asked
"What is your name?"
and the name Isabelle was the first name I thought of. It wasn't said out clearly like the second question I asked before so it might have just been my expectations again.
This isn't the end to what I experienced but this were the main event that I remembered.
Like I mentioned before, I am only a 15 year old girl, and this experience was a super scary one for me. This was also my first time experiencing something like this, I do not know much about what I am supposed to do now, but I really want to get to experience more like this, better if it was less scary.
If anyone reads this, I would like to seek advice of anyone who might have an idea of what I have went through. Or anyone who has had a similiar experience. I am quite interested to know about other peoples first experiences and if it was anywhere like mine.