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Hello everyone.
I had been on this site about 4 years ago. I wanted to find a diet spell but instead i got many more interesting information which changed my opinion on many things. So I've been reading many books on various topics since then. Now I'm back here because something has happened over these 4 years. The first year was amazing, I felt like everything was going great and I was the best me, I was confident, happy and most importantly, free. But as soon as the second year started I started to become antisocial, I couldn't find a reason to hang out with my friends anymore, the only reason I would go out was my school, I started to have depression, anxiety, stress and so on. My situation got worse overtime, until, today that I'm writing this topic. I've been asking myself, what's my dream? what's my passion? What is it that I want to do the most? What gives me meaning? And strangely, I can't come up with an answer. The only thing that makes me comfortable is thinking about vanishing into thin air. I used to have many dreams and passions but now my mind just goes blank when I try to remember.
Now I know my dear concerned friends out there will tell me to get help from a therapist but I have, it didn't work. I know there's something else I have to fix first, but I don't know what it is. So I've been wondering if someone has cursed me. Because no matter how hard I think I can't find out why I've ended up like this! I would love to hear your opinion. If you think it's a curse, what's the cure? And if not, what is it and how can I heal myself again?