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My problem is like a lack of faith. I'm not religous or anything, but, I do believe in the soul.

It may sound silly at first, but the begining of my depression started with simple biology lessons. Unintentionally, I started having the mentality of a mecanisist, person who thinks beings are only compocisions of matter or machines made out of meat.

Well, all that took me to believe I am nothing, that I am only that...that there is no "soul", that we are only empowered by our conciousness, which is the brain. This is really stressful for me, I have a full fight inside me, I have been feeling very doubtful about many, many things. I even lack cmy ability to "love" now, I think it only an attraction, which I used to know that real love was much more than that. I lost interest in just about everything, in life itself, I can't care for other people anymore, not even for those whom I "love"...

It is a very big carry, not only for me, but for those around me. Please, this is very serious...it's like a fight inside me.

I am only 15 years old, and even though I have alot to go through, I can't seem to be interested in life as much anymore, and that is not what I really want. I don't want to end up suiciding, because death is not an escape.