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Greetings.
I don't know exactly if this is the right place to post this, but I'm in need of some enlightenment.
Ever since my mother died at the hospital from a heart attack 2 years ago, I have been feeling this huge weight on my shoulders and often times I struggle to sleep. I thought those were common symptoms of a depression considering I lost her at 21 years old and that turned my life upside down but since then it feels like nothing goes right. I haven't been able to get a job, enroll in university and when I tried moving abroad it's like the whole universe worked it's way to send me back home in a painful way. I feel like I'm chained to this place and I've tried everything. In this span of time I've also dealt with two infestations, one that I can't seem to get rid of even though we've tried everything. I want to know what I can do to understand and maybe fix whatever energy is around me.