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I haven't been here since saturday, i have started to get bad dreams and some, I'm only half awake for.

I have attempted to steer clear for a little while to try and figure them out for myself but it just seems like I can't do it and at the moment, it 's begining to worsen.

I know you may think this silly but my Gran used to always tell me never to ignore what a bad dream says because it is trying to tell you something.
Well I have tried to ignore them up until last night and I was reluctant to post them on here, they were just terrifying for me and it has taken me a lot to come on here and share...
Tried a ritual to stop the flood of infomation coming through in these horrible dreams but it just seemed to have backfired and made things worse. I have not been able to focus much since they started but I was really reluctant to tell any of you due to how graphic they seem to be and re-itterating them gives me the chills.

I am in the bathroom at home and I am attempting to shout for my boyfriend but I feel faint and I know somehow that it is my dying. I literally can feel myself dying in the dream but I can't shout his name because I am far too weak to talk and my son pops his head around the door and I try to tell him to go get my boyfriend but by that point I have no vioce and I cut off.
Thats not the most frightening part though.
I wake up, but not fully so I am aware of where I am and I am aware of the room around me but a child, a figure maybe, not sure if it it a child runs between me and my boyfriend, I can actually feel the bed's weight shif as it runs down and climbs off. My bedroom door is wide open and I shake myself awake properly.

I don't know what it means and I try to take my mind off of things during the day and refrain from coming here because now I feel silly for telling you all this but I am terrified to go to sleep at all.