I promise you this is a serious question. I seriously need help. I am not crazy. Something talks threw me that I cannot control. I have absolutely no medical condition, perfectly sane. I have even worked as a teacher. I literally get poked and stabbed by an invisible force that causes me to jump in pain. I am unable to listen to any spiritual music, not even Christian music. I am unable to go to a Christian church and weird things happen and church people act weird around me. A force stops me from reading the bible or vedic texts or any spiritual texts. I really did like reading spiritual texts. When I try to clear and calm my mind, I lose control over my body and my face makes bad faces and my body reacts as if my own body is angry. I am starting to feel like a guest in my own body. I wanted to see a doctor until they said there is nothing wrong with me.
(Fair warning, this is going to be a long read. There is a lot to unpack here)
It sounds like you have been exploring (and ruling out) mundane causes, so that is a good first step in the right direction. But to properly help, I would be grateful if you could answer a few questions. Bear in mind this is to understand the situation, and also the context behind it. Problems can have many solutions, but finding the best one to follow depends on how severe this situation is and also on what sorts of paths you follow. One should use the tools that are familiar after all. A mig welder is useless in the hands of a stone Mason.
When did this start? Is this something new/recent? Or has it been an issue for a long period of time?
What was happening when it began? Did you move to a new home, have a traumatic event (death, near-death, severe illness, etc?), or make a distinct change in spirituality? Did you 'dabble' in something? (magic, calling an entity of some sort, fiddle with an ouija board, etc?) Or maybe got into a toxic relationship?
When you try to listen to uplifting music or read spiritually focused texts, what happens to stop you? What about listening to them being read to you (listening to YouTube, or having someone read it to you, for example.) Is it physical restraint? Pokes and jabs? Invasive thoughts and distractions? Sudden overwhelming emotions?
Body tremors, phantom jabs, and similar sensations can sometimes be attributed to muscle spasms. One major cause is hypertension- a physical and also emotional state where the body and mind get so used to being stressed and tense it constantly sits like a wound spring. Moments of calm can feel deeply uncomfortable because that tension wants to release. This might be one more thing to explore and rule out as at least a partial cause.
Spiritually-speaking, if you are finding yourself under serious attack that first and foremost suggests something is seriously out of balance in your life. Something is going on that brought you to a point where you feel vulnerable or without agency over yourself. There are some initial suggestions that can be made to help at least.
First though, and I can not emphasize this enough, Talk to someone in your community who you trust, who is educated and experienced in spiritual crisis and support. If you are Christian, talk to your pastor. If you are wiccan, talk to your coven leader (as long as he/she is an actual ordained priest/ess). Likewise for whatever path you may walk. If you are already feeling beat-down and vulnerable then you -will- need help in retaking charge of yourself and your space.
Any actions we might suggest relies on the will and conviction of the person enacting that advice. If you feel weak and vulnerable, your protections and cleansing will also start out the same way. And, if this is a genuine oppression, then trying to fight back will trigger a strong response. Whatever entity this may be would try to overwhelm and bully you back into submission.
If you start fighting back, be forewarned it will get worse before it gets better. You need to be willing to keep fighting for yourself and your space. And much of that struggle will be internal. A big part of taking back agency is realizing you always had it.
A place to begin is with awareness, and cleansing. Physically, mentally, and spiritually. Make your home clean. Organize your stuff and your space. Put away the clutter. Get outside into a natural space with natural light, and let it build a sense of comfort to allow you to let go of negative and fearful thoughts. Find and display positive quotes and messages in your home. Things that reassure you, inspire a desire to grow as a person or even just things that make you smile or laugh. Foster positivity in your home.
Pay attention to yourself and how you feel. Be aware of when and how you experience these attacks. Recognize them so you can observe when something is trying to influence you. Then deny its power. Remind yourself you are the only one in charge of you, and the rest is just background noise.
Clearing the home with sage or cedar helps, but it Is the spiritual version of sweeping the floor; it only works as long as you don't come back with dirty feet tracking all over the floor. Saying 'get out' is only effective if you follow with 'stay out'. If your practice includes ways to define a threshold to your space or to lay ownership, use it.
And once again, engage help. Why fight alone when you don't have to. Especially if you can get help from someone experienced and within their own authority who can support you while you find your own.
Finally, learn from the situation. Learn about yourself. Examine and learn from your choices. Learn from those who help you. Grow stronger through adversity and keep that strength with you beyond it.
It started when I was seduced by a haunting in the house hold. Something tried to seduce me and finally I let it happen. I had sex with this haunting...She was attractive and made it seem alright. Slowly there was things happening until it became obvious and I was still in denial. People started to call me a Jinx at work. I started paying attention to what I was doing. Things came to mind I was not thinking, Words left my mouth that I was not saying and when I resisted there was a strain forcing it. I was touching my privates when I didn't want to. When I resisted I would get a stab and pain that would make me jolt up and words would leave my mouth saying things like "Oh you like that (S word) don't ya!" I would have weird dreams as well. It has happened for a few years now. I tried different ways of getting rid of it, even tried church. When I listen to spiritual music or spiritual text, I feel forced to stop. My body moves on its own and turns off the music or closes the book. I am pretty calm minded accept I get sad that it's happening. The sadness seems normal but what is not normal is when my body makes me make angry expressions when I am not angry especially when I try to force myself to be calm and resist. My body forces me to break things and put wholes in walls but I am not angry but my face says I am and my actions do. I am pretty sure anyone would feel sad if this was happening to them though. It definitely bullys me and I am able to resist it but not all the time and it does not go away. I do know I need help which is why i came on this site. I tried the church like I said but they don't really help, some may pray for me some even say they sense a spirit is attacking me and prayed over me and said its gone now and gave me his prayer card and all of that. It wasn't gone at all wasn't gone even a little bit. Even makes fun of me when I try to pray. Might even tell me secrets about people. Tells me what some people are about to say and then they say it. Even shows me what they do when no one is looking...I hope it is lying sometimes because people are gross and evil if it is not lying. It Told me whos into witchcraft and all of a sudden that person hints to me that they are into witchcraft. I cleaned my house, organized my space already and practice generally morally good behaviors. I don't have anyone around me to ask for help. I already tried church, something forces me not to say it and I cannot say anything no matter how hard I try. I came across spiritual people who claim to be experts but display toxic behaviors like making fun of me and spreading rumors about me being a loser or about me being homeless because I sometimes take the bus. I am not homeless by the way and don't believe me to be a loser considering I worked as a teacher. I did learn a lesson though...Having sex with unknown spirits can have disastrous consequences and a lot of spiritual people have their own spiritual problems some of them don't know it, and not everyone in a position to help others has any business helping other people and they cause more harm than good.
You might want to look into finding an exorcist that can do an exorcism in person. Thats a thing thats done better with physical contact. Also I would do some protection spells for now until I could find an exorcist.
I'm trying to find one in different places, including this website. I figured sense these are spell casters familiar with this kind of thing, I would also find one here. I have tried different kinds of protection spells and it has not gotten any better, at all.
I'm so sorry to hear about what's happening to you. I'm going to do a reading for you with either tarot or Oracle depending on what I feel is going to be the best medium, until I know what's going on I can't guarantee if I can help you or not, but if it turns out I can then I have a lot of ideas on how to help you, for one thing I work with Goddess Hecate so if this is a "spirit attacking" matter then there's something we can do. I'll send the results of the reading to you through SOM's email system. Please let us know if you have any other things happen aside from what you've already listed.
I understand the desire for a quick solution as well, but proper action takes time and consideration. Especially if you want it to be effective. Any working worth their salt will spend time seeking as much information as possible. I the Christian faith, for example, it can take literal months of talking and investigation before clergy will even perorm a lesser exorcism of a person or house. Even just asking for a blessing on your home can take a while.
If you do meet someone local to you who is willing to help, you should be mindful of scammers. They should have a process for helping, including looking for information on your home, yourself, and the being itself. Including history. They should also be willing to answer your questions. Especially when it pertains to their practice, training, and process. If the response is "I can't tell you" or "it is a secret" or otherwise a dodging statement then that is a huge red flag. You should also be present and involved with the process. If a person says anything similar to a theme of "give me money and I will go bury it in a graveyard" or "I need 'x' money to make a ritual at home" immediately show them the door. If they try to say they need extra/excess money for magic ingedients/components, also show them the door. The most common one-time use tools are incense (like sage) candles (a dollar-store item) maybe some consecration oil or holy/sacred water (usually home made) salt or on occasion some grain alcohol. All of which is dirt cheap and easy to access. They should already have the more expensive tools if they have an active practice. Athames, wands, chalice, crystals... those are all things a person collects and keeps. Like a mechanic and his wrenches, you don't need to buy a new set for every job.
Those cautions aside, it is of course a service being given and the worker has the right to set their price for that service. Just be aware of warning signs and feel free to say no if it is too high. Your situation, though frustrating, is not an immediate or dangerous one. You have the right to shop around.
I'm going to have some more thoughts (and possibly questions) about the situation itself, but I tend to have limited time in a day so it might take a bit.