Ive been trying to find someone here for a while now who can help me with the situation i have. Please any real spell casters who would help me please please please help me. I cant take it anymore. I am getting in to worst and worst state of depression every single day because of this. Please can someone truly help me.
It is very unlikely you will find someone experienced and who knows what they are doing to cast a spell for you. I highly suggest you go into therapy to help you get through what you cannot take anymore, therapists are always there to help. If you feel like you must cast a spell you may casta healing spell and I suggest you write your own since you will have more connection to it.
I do strongly advise you to please seek medical help, if you feel you may have depression or are thinking about harming yourself. Only medic professionals may help you with such things, magick can aid but it will not, in any case, be a cure for it.
Nothing to be ashamed of when seeking help, we all need it at some point.