So I know how to cast spells and do my own rituals, so that's not the issue here. The problem is that when I try to focus on one point my mind scatters and automatically sends out negative energy out into the spell or the item I am charging or blessing.
Please don't tell me to meditate because i know for sure meditation is not for me.
Will the energy fade away if I don't think about it or worry too much? I don't want to spoil my spell and if you have a solution to this problem, besides meditation, please tell me.