I dont really know why, but Ive just had a reliazation and would like to have some input. So, Ive got this strange fear of heights. I know its common, but the way it affects me is very odd. Im fine with most heights, just some nervousness beforehand. But Im absolutely terrified of some random situations. One I remember clearly was when I was in some sort of stadium, looked out a window and had a complete breakdown. Even so, Im fine near the top of hotels, Im just not stupidly leaning, at the same distance as I was in the stadium from a window.
Yet, in other situations Im fine. I know this isnt magickal by itself, but the dreams that follow make me curious. So, Ive had dreams that tell of the future. Death on its own happens a lot, and it these dreams Im specifically the one dying. Poison of a jellyfish, tiger eating me alive and some force of pure darkness are just a few. I wake up right before I die in these dreams, and half the time its the alarm, mysteriously going off at just the right time.
Ive looked into it, and accept the deity that protects me in these scenarios. But, whenever I do die, and feel a tingly feeling when I wake up, its these odd situations involving heights. If Im supposed to be protected, why do I only die from heights, and furthermore why am I so particular in my fear? Or am I just being a bit paranoid?