There is a high chance that I am possessed.
Actually, I feel something foreign is latched at me from times to times.
Also, it manages to to cast spells through my consciousness not by reigning over it, but by manipulating my thoughts.
Sometimes it is torturing me by controlling my thoughts again.
For example, it is bombarding me with negative and sometimes extremely awkward thoughts, probably trying to lower my vibrations.
Whenever I try to cast a spell, it somehow flaws every good spell and turns every bad spell back at me.Which mean that it is turning all my efforts to banish it to naught.
Anybody? Can you give some advice?
Or, can anybody expel it for me?
Thanks in advance.
Spirits don't necessarily control peoples' thoughts and it is not unheard of for spirits to latch onto or associate themselves with humans. Have you tried communicating with said spirit? You never know if it's a spirit trying to get your attention to work with you or not until you're willing to find out. Also, what do you mean casting spells through you?
Bromvolde I mean that it uses my thoughts in order to get me to a low enough vibration. Once I gey bombarded with mental attacks, I feel energy flow out of my body. If this energy manifests, well there you have it.
What sort of protection precautions are you already doing on a normal basis? Wards? Amulets? Rituals? What is set up at the very moment you are reading this? No Google searching to cheat.
Because what you are describing sounds like nothing more than a case of someone that jumped head first into advanced magick without realizing they have to have really good willpower and defenses up first. Especially, ESPECIALLY with chaos magick. Do you realize the implications of chaos magick when done wrong? I've seen it cause people to unhinge and lose their sanity. And that's what's happening to you right now. So I suggest you stop what it is you are doing, back up and start working to repair the damage you did to yourself asap.
Well, when I pick up negative feelings around me, I tend to pull it inside my body. Then what I do next is try to ground it. It's ok, you're not the only one casting spells then it takes opposite affects. It seems like if I cast good spells, it is reversed and it turns into a bad spell. And if I cast a bad spell, it turns into a good spell.
Have you ever thought you could be an Empath? An empath is someone who can feel others emotions as if they were their own. When someone is like this and they don't take measures or don't know how to block these emotions they feel as if their being attacked or sometimes carry those emotions with them for awhile. Happy feelings are strong but they don't last in the body as long as darker emotions...I hope that makes sense. Its hard to put feelings into words. Sort of how its easier to ruin a good day, than making a bad day good. Try some of the things mentioned already by others that have posted.
You can also try and when you take a shower, imagine all those feelings and negativity washing away. With things like this, a lot of it is mind over matter.