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Can someone relate to this? Whenever I do a reading for someone, I'm certain about the things I say, I'm confident with my cards, I love telling them about their situation etc. but the second I try to do a reading for myself I go into this mode of manipulating the message, I just look at the cards and I feel like I can't understand anything. but then I give my friend a quick reading and suddenly it's like I'm sort of some messenger and all. I'm even thinking about offering a mutual reading session with another reader on this site...Does someone have any solution or do I just need time? Have a nice day