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Hi everyone, Ive always been interested in wicca and true magic as far back as I can remember. I'm in my 30s now, and i feel a pull in this direction. I cant really explain it. I come from an Irish and Indian background, my Grandfather was full blooded Cherokee, so I have have always been exposed to little things here and there, but as a child, my mother forbid any kind of "hocus Pocus" as she would call it. Recently my brother in law passed away, and since then, I have have an indescribable urge to learn the craft and begin practicing, BUT... I have SO MANY QUESTIONS. I know you guys say read and learn, but what do I read? Is there anything in particular I should start with? any other websites that may help me gain insight as to what to do? for some reason , I am drawn to crysyals/gems, and herbs more than anything. My intuition is at an all time high lately, and its never wrong. also Ive been told by a couple of friends from the Pagan community that I am an Empath, which makes sense, considering I can hardly go into public places any more without almost having a nervous breakdown. It completely drains me sometimes to the point I dont leave the house or speak to anyone for a couple of days so that I can recharge. i just want to make sense of it all. any advice anyone can give me will be greatly appreciated and not taken for granted. thank you for taking the time to read this. Blessed Be