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hi guys. i have been studying magic for about 5yrs nw and i am still where i was when i started out. these are my predicaments:
first and most importantly, i am nigerian. here, you're either christian or muslim, magic and witchcraft are frowned upon in both faiths. this makes practitioners- and possible mentors and materials- extremely hard to find! that and i've never successfully had a clear mind for more than 5seconds! well, i know i'm not the only one studying the arts on my own, so i'd like to hear some of your experiences (that is; those of you with no mentors) so i can learn! So mote it be! please!