Magic Forums

Let me start by saying that I appreciate any help at all on this topic, or if someone can relate I'd love to hear.
So up 'till about two months ago, I firmly believed that my title as an eclectic witch fit me fine, and I was satisfied. However, recently I met someone who I connected with quickly (who is now my FP, for those of you who know of/have BPD) and he told me about a dream he had that he believes confirms his christian practices/values. I'm honestly terrified because since I hold his opinion almost too highly, it greatly affected my perception of religion and spirituality. I don't want to be a christian, I was forced into catholicism as a child and it never did any good for me. I believe in angels and that's it. But because of him I'm so confused now spiritually. Does anyone have any advice on how to do some proper "soul-searching" so I can find my path again? I really can't tell whats real anymore and it pains me. Anything helps, thank you to those who read to this point.