Hopefully this will help. If I linked the correct link! Its a definition of magick I found rather informative and enlightening.
To me, believing stems from the desire to believe. Also, taking no small amount of faith! While I cannot make you believe, and I doubt its even possible to truly force ones views on another. You also happen to find yourself on a forum surrounded by those that believe, remain open minded and patient, take everything in with a grain of salt, but remain open minded. With some effort, perseverance, and desire you will in time find the answers you seek!
I hope this helped, if you have any questions feel free to ask. Good luck in your studies.