The title may be weird, so here's what is happening: Whenever I am about to do something crucial, like cast a spell, my thoughts get badly messed up, to they point where they are dangerously reversed. For example, if I try casting a banishing ritual, while i think of casting the spirit away, my mind might slip away on its own and make me think of actually summoning a demon, or if I try to cast a curse, I might lose control over my mind and hurl it on me! In the end, it always gets reversed so as to be harmful to me. And it is so intense...intense enough to prevent me from casting spells. But the most outrageous part is when I try to approach spiritual beings, like deities. I might be just thinking about them, then my thoughts will get warped into something that will either be awkward or even insulting. For example, I started thinking of a god one day while I was praying, and while I was telling the prayer in my mind, I started hearing my self saying random swear words(this happened without me controlling it if course, but in the end, it is awkward).
Am I under the influence of some short of curse? Is a malevolent spiritual entity warping my thoughts in order to trap me into doing something I really shouldn't? Please help me!
I use to get this thoughts as well . What help me a lot is to just let the thoughts go by don't try to take control let it do its thing and those thoughts will go away simple as that. the more times you try to control it the more bad the thoughts will be . Good luck
The thing is, I am actually not worried at all when I start casting the spell. It is all good, until bad thoughts spring up from nowhere. And sometimes it isn't just thoughts, but also intentions. I'll give another example: sometimes at night I feel afraid, and as my mind wanders to what demons might be lurking in the night, I might start involuntarily drawing energy in order to summon them. I hope that made sense. That is why I personally think it's a psychic attack.
Although your claim has some short of basis by saying that healing and protection should only be applied when the harmful factor are removed, are you aware that sometimes you can hamper the cause of the problem through interrupting it? For example, if I am let's say, haunted, and someone casts a protection spell over me that is very strong, the spirit that haunts me will get energitically disconnected from me. This if course means that the malevolent spirit, devoid of its energy supply, might at the start try to stir up a lot of trouble as a last resort or strike directly on the protective barrier the spell provides. But if the spell is indeed strong and well layered, the spirit will lose the fight and will be forced to buzz off.
I am not playing smart here. I just want to tell you that magick can be flexible.
It is not my intention to undervalue things, but we should use rites or spells of different intensity according to the situation. Again, for example, you shouldn't try to exorcise an ancient demon by simply drawing a hexagram, but you shouldn't go to such great lenghths by trying to banish a playful fairy the way you would banish a greater demon of some short.
Something regarding the curse or haunting thing, by my personal observations, there is a probability that I am both cursed and targeted. I just hope that I am not cursed to be haunted by a spirit, because this would mean that a spirit is attached to me not just through a simple energy bond, but by another, more advanced one along with it. And depending on how well done the curse was, the more troublesome it will be trying to get rid of a haunting of this nature.