Well caramel, aren't you just encouraging.
I suggest you take time and learn to meditate. Magick is a very spiritual art, but it can have adverse effects if taken lightly, and without the proper grounding.
To give you an example, I was a lot like you.
Post's like that other one just made me mad, and more stubborn. Now I'm dealing with what it's like to be ungrounded, and basically have an unstable third eye.
I a!m starting to figure out how to handle out, and feel better, but it's taken years.
It also takes years to learn this craft.
Be safe, and meditate. Learn how to ground yourself before worrying about spellwork.
Your mind and soul will thank you. :)