Hi everybody... This question is kind of gonna be surrounded with a bunch of rambling and stuffs, so feel free to skip over anything you don't wanna read. Lavender, and let me start out by saying I 've never followed Heathenism, Asatru, or any other Norse pagan paths before. I started off as Wiccan, ventured into Ifa, and now I'm just kind of in this weird type of Wiccanesque eclectic thing.
Except, since the beginning of my spiritual journey, the Norse pantheon has kind of been calling to me. (Freyja made herself known in a dream; Odin's name showed up in nearly everything I read and watched). I had always kind of been intimidated by this pantheon; I ignored them for quite a while, but they're SO persistent, it's crazy. I keep on getting dreams and signals and messages, and I'm really nervous. So I guess my question is, how do I work with the Norse gods and why are they interested in me? I mean:
- I'm kind of soft. The Vikings were brave and tough and just really "RAWR", and I'm a vegetarian who listens to U2 for God's sake! I eat ice cream, I cry during cartoons and I wear Uggs. Why would any sort of strong entity want anything to do with me?
- I've got barely any ethnic ties to Scandinavia. I'm only 7% , you know (geneology test), and the rest of me is black.. Basically the polar opposite of the Vikings. I kinda feel like Odin and Freyja and their kin deserve better than me...
I'm just not their type. I don't match up, you know? I don't at all get how to tell them all of this, or that maybe they're mistaken in calling me... Are the gods ever wrong? And how do I tell them what kind of person I am and why they wouldn't end up wanting me as a worshipper?