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Hello. I have a question about a familiar I think may be mine. I'd like to apologize for the extremely long message.
A few months ago I had preformed a spell I found on this website (http://www.sppellsofmagic.com/spells/spiritual_spe lls/conjuring_spells/17212/page.html) to conjure a cat familiar.
Now I will admit that at the time I was doing it out of boredom like any other teen and I wasn't fully aware of what I was performing.
So as the spell stated I drew my ideal cat on a blank sheet of paper and put it under my pillow. But as I did so I forgot that I had used pastels to make and color the drawing. By the time I woke up in the morning the black pastel used before was all smudged, creating white spots, and gray coloring for the fur.
I eventually threw the paper away two weeks later I believe. Not thinking much of it.
But then a month later a pregnant queen gave birth to a litter in my backyard. Now I know most say that the familiar is a energy or some sort of astral projection instead of a physical creature, but as I kept an eye on the whole litter as they grew and made their own homes in the neighborhood, one caught my eye.
We used to call the cat Gandolf, and assumed it was a boy as it was the biggest of the litter when it was a few weeks old. But now as I looked at it next to it's other litter mates she's small and petite. And her fur coloring became lighter as well, a grayish color with the same EXACT white spots as the drawing I made.
It was just a regular day no was out helping my mum get my brothers wheelchair on the car when I looked over and Gandolf was on the over side of the street watching me and I caught her eye. It was like all the memory of what I did for the spell came rushing in and I even had a sharp pain as it happened.
After that another couple weeks passed by. I even voiced my concern to my mum the other day and her first reaction was ''So that's why she always watching our yard.''
Which is true. Ever since Gandolf was old enough she claimed our backyard from her litter mates. I've seen the fights that happened to protect her territory. Her favorite spot to keep an eye on things is on our fence, especially a corner across from my bedroom window. My mum even took note that Gandolf always seems regal like, the exact term I wrote down on the spell paper as the familiars personality.
Now I ask--would she be my familiar? Do I take her I to my home, even though she's grown up against humans and usually afraid of them.
I wen tested a theory I had. The name i put in the paper for the spell was Midnight. One day she was across the street from me and I focused, trying to go into a semi Meditive state, and whispered as well as thinking to project my thoughts ''Midnight come to me''. At the same exact moment she looked up and ears perked she stood up and was about to cross over the street I believe. But then a car zoomed by breaking my focus and she just stared at me and then trotted the opposite way.
Have an amazing day,